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Allie & The Djinn Chapter 2: WTF!
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Ally & The Djinn Chapter 1: Seismic Shift
Hi there, lovely readers,
Thank you so much for visiting my blogsite, and I'm genuinely grateful for every click that brings you here.
I realize that when I posted the prologue I said, come back next week for Chapter 1, and it's now weeks later and I haven't posted the chapter. My apologies. While I live with a certain amount of organized chaos, occasionally (I may be glossing over reality with that word) it's more chaos than organization. But my good news is that I have been busy and my latest WIP, a science-fiction is set a couple of millennia later in the same universe as the Saoirse Saga, is now with my wonderful editor, Lois Dacus. So, without delay, here, as promised, if a bit belatedly, is Chapter 1 of Ally & The Djinn.
CHAPTER 1: SEISMIC SHIFT
Allie waited on the sidewalk,
clenching her fists, her fingers—nails bitten down to the quick—pressing into
her palm. Chris was late. As usual. Allie cursed him under her breath. The
sudden scraping sensation under her skin, the painful crawling down her spine,
the squeezing sensation in her lungs—all were a red alert. The urge to scream
pushed up from her belly, through her chest, and swelled in her throat. She
swallowed half a dozen times, pushing everything down and silencing the
assault. No way was she going to have a meltdown in the middle of Main Street,
despite her entire body crawling with ants, each possessing razor-sharp,
red-hot pincers that tore at her flesh.
Where the fuck had her dealer gotten to? He’d insisted on
ten o’clock. She turned and peered into the coffee shop behind her at the clock
on the wall. Ten past, and no sign of him. The blazing sunlight gave her a
massive headache, even after borrowing Jenny’s black sunglasses. Sorry, Jen. My
eyes are way more bloodshot than yours. She tossed the mental apology in her
friend’s direction. Jenny had recognized her in the street one evening and
taken pity on her, and she’d experienced Jenny’s sudden bursts of temper more
than once. The idea that she might throw Allie out was unwelcome because she
preferred not to think about the crack house she had lived in previously. Yet In
any event, she would be back at the apartment before Jenny got home from work,
as long as Chris appeared soon. If he didn’t, she would be well and truly
screwed, and annoying Jenny would be the least of her worries.
A frisson of electricity shot through her. Her hair stood on
end. She shivered as goose bumps ran up and down her arms, as if an alien
presence had passed by too close. Her mother’s witchy genes rarely manifested,
yet when they did, she knew to pay attention. Granny’s hunches and sightings
were more serious, and she’d spent her final days in a nuthouse. Right now, something
freakish had ratcheted up her heightened state of hypervigilance to new levels
of of suspicion.
She straightened up, aware of the soothing sensation of the
morning sun warming her face and body. Hell’s bells, she was hungry. Hell’s
bells and a bunch of parsley! Hell’s bells? Where had that come from, let alone
the parsley? She’d never said that phrase in her life. Some kind of change had
taken place; she could feel it down to her joints, as Granny liked to say. How
had it happened, and why, and what did it mean? As a white fog clouded her
mind, she focused on her scuffed sneakers, the stains on her torn jeans, and
caught a whiff of herself. Man, she stank. There was another smell, too, that
she couldn’t quite place.
†
Son
of a starving djinn, Quareem thought, the aroma evoking memories. Marketplaces,
conversations of many kinds, some more pleasant than others, people telling
stories, jokes. A quick flash surfaced: sipping strong brown liquid from a
small, delicately painted china cup as he sat on a balcony overlooking a city of
pale domed buildings glinting in the sun as slender golden-skinned beauties
served fragrant sesame seed cakes and refreshments. He had been there with
someone. Who? A woman? The slice of memory faded, while the scent tickling the
nose of his current host remained tantalizingly real. Yes, he remembered. The
substance emitting that enticing, irresistible fragrance was coffee.
†
Another wave of… sparkly lightness with a flash of dazzle…
passed through her. As she stared at the busy pedestrians, the traffic noises
reduced to a buzzing in her ears, she wondered where the odor drifting up her
nostrils and into her olfactory centers came from, because it was driving her
crazy. She turned and, with no conscious volition, strode toward the door and
entered the shop. As she approached the counter, the server looked up, eyes
widening as he registered her grimy gray T-shirt, the sweat staining her
armpits, and the auburn dreadlocks gathered in a loose bun on the top of her
head. He spoke to a point over her shoulder. “What can I get for you today?”
His disdain made her want to smack his smug face, but then
she wouldn’t get what she wanted. She smothered her irritation. “A venti
Blonde, black. Extra shot.”
The man’s eyebrows rose a fraction. “For here or to go?”
“For here, and two of those.” Allie pointed at a tray of
golden, curved pastries.
“Plus two chocolate croissants. That will be eight thirty.”
Allie dug in her jeans pocket and fished out a
hundred-dollar bill. What the hell? Where…? She blanked. Nothing was important
except sipping that heavenly beverage.
He took the cash, handing her change over. “Name?”
What was this? The inquisition? “Alicia.” This was weird.
Nobody had ever called her Alicia except her mother, and she only used her
eldest daughter’s full name in a particular tone to express her displeasure.
“Wait at the end of the bar.” The barista signaled his
dismissal by turning to the next customer.
Where else did he expect her to wait? Hover near the
ceiling? The whimsical thought brought a smile as she pictured herself—no, it
wasn’t her; it was… the memory vanished. Fuck. If withdrawal had begun, she
would kill Chris and skin him alive when she got hold of him. An image of
lightning zigzagging from her fingertips and Chris crumpling to the ground
flashed before her, followed by a sharp stabbing pain in her head. She swayed.
“Are you okay?” the stylishly dressed businessman standing
behind her asked.
None of your business. Fuck off, she thought. “I’m fine,”
she muttered, saved by the barista’s shrill tenor calling out her name. Nothing
worse than what she considered a waste of time and energy—a conversation with
someone who had no relevance to her life, now or ever.
Half an hour, two more croissants, and another giant cup of
the primo barista brew later, she sat back, amazed at the satisfaction and
contentment flushing through her. The corner window seat had a view of the
street and the other customers in the bar. While eating, she checked both out,
eyes swiveling left, then right, finding only the usual hustle and bustle. She
scowled at the leather-jacketed, bald guy standing on the sidewalk glaring at
her. He seemed familiar, and when she tried to work out why, her ability to
think had ceased functioning.
With his shrewd, beady eyes glued to her, the man stabbed a
finger at the watch on his wrist and, with a sharp, aggressive gesture,
beckoned her.
Whoever he was, he wasn’t anybody she wanted to be friends
with, and if he was still there when she finished her breakfast, then she would
give him an earful. Mmm…that might not be for a while, because she was thinking
of having a final pastry and a last gigantic cup of that beautiful beverage. First,
though, the bathroom. She stood up, refrained from giving him the finger, and
instead ignored him and headed for the bathroom.
She was alone, washing her hands, squinting at herself in
the mirror, thinking what a mess she was and wondering when she last had a
shower, when she heard the voice.
†
A
female. Young, yes, that could work. Not that he had a choice. A nearby Hunter
meant he was safer to stay where he was until there was less risk. What’s more,
he’d never resided with a female before. The Fates must have offered him this
chance for a reason. Aside from the subtle promise of her magic, would she want
to dominate and manipulate others to fulfill her desires as most women did? A
human full of material ambition made the ideal keeper, as their greed enabled
him to shape them to his will. This human appeared to have no aspirations for
position or money. The only images he picked up from her befuddled mind
reminded him of wealthy patrons lying on comfortable couches, smoking opium
from pipes, while her disheveled clothes and erratic, scattered manner of
thinking, jumping from topic to topic without a break, had more in common with
those he’d seen collapsed in alleyways, their pipes glowing in the dark as they
inhaled. She put on a good show. In contrast, he was not sure what he might
find behind the shield she had erected between herself and the world. Fortunately,
it had taken no time at all to remove her obsessive craving for crack—whatever
that was—which placed her in his debt.
He
would do a thorough analysis of her thoughts and memories when she slept and
her barriers were down. Most important, and rare to find, she possessed an
immense amount of dormant magical ability. Regrettably, she had no idea of her
untapped talent, so he was unable to use it. He would teach her; she would be
grateful and grant him permission to access that glorious energy to replenish
his own somewhat depleted store.
More
essential to his survival, though, she could mask his presence from those who
hunted him. He shuddered at the memory of the Hunters’ flickering scarlet
cloaks. They would shackle him more tightly if they caught him again. Better to
die than return to the emptiness, the nonexistence, of a Hunter’s prison.
Right
now, he had to connect and entice her into agreement, because he needed to
hide. Preferably with somebody who would submissively comply with his orders.
An accomplice, really. Did he even have enough power to take her over? He shook
his head. How had his life and safety come to depend on a mortal woman? One
who, apparently, did not appreciate a steaming bath and fragrant soap.
He
fixed his attention on the present. Alternating the bitter, smooth, hot liquid
he sipped along with the delicious taste of combined flour, butter and sugar
sent his tongue into long forgotten drools of ecstasy. He gazed around and,
while the café’s occupants wore unrecognizable and bizarre outfits, he
understood the status of those imbibing alongside him.
He
decided that the females dressed bizarrely in skin-tight leggings and short
cropped tops and wondered, what was the point in having an imagination? Perhaps
that faculty had dimmed, and men in this society needed to see every lump and
bulge of flesh to arouse themselves. The men, in contrast, seemed to wear
looser pants of a rough-looking material and baggier tops. How odd. The women
revealed their assets while the men hid theirs. He saw no ragged clothing, or
signs of dirt or obvious disease. Their auras indicated satisfaction and low
levels of worry about money, love and other such mundane concerns, which he had
solved for himself an eternity ago.
However,
the foul pungent stink of urinals had not changed, in spite of the overlay of a
chemical designed to mask the pungent aromas. He watched his host study her
reflection—and judging by how her nose wrinkled—even she didn’t like the rank
pong of her body. Oh, well. Here’s hoping she won’t have a heart attack and
fall dead, ‘cause that would be a serious inconvenience for me. Here goes.
“Greetings, fair one.”
***
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Stay safe and well,
Warmest wishes,
Teagan. 😊
Ally & The Djinn
Hey there, lovely readers,
This year is clearing its throat, tapping its watch, and pretending it doesn’t mind being shown the door. I still have a couple of unfinished promises on my to-do list, and at least one resolution is hiding behind the couch. Yet, somehow, this feels like the right moment for a story to begin—not with a bang but with that silent pause where something ordinary is about to lean sideways and become irresistible.
What follows is a tale where magic has the decency to act like it belongs in this universe, and, as the old year packs its bags, this story looks forward, not backward. So settle in, make yourself cozy in your favorite reading spot, bring your suspension of disbelief, and consider this a friendly invitation to take a little time out from normality!
Quareem raised his hands, the
walls of his tiny prison cell expanding with the movement, and concentrated on
chanting every syllable with flawless pronunciation. After all, his goal wasn’t
to end up as a sandworm in some wasteland, was it? After completing the spellbreaker,
he waited.
No
sound of a heartbeat, because the sorcery that placed him here had left him
suspended outside of time and space.
I
do exist, a quiet voice inside his head insisted, although, as far as the rest
of the universe knew, his life had stopped the second the Hunters had trapped
him and slapped their null cuffs around his wrists.
He
counted: one, two, three. The unmitigated sensory deprivation would have driven
him mad if not for the sanity of numbers—and he gasped as a bolt of lightning
sliced through him. A sudden violent shivering had his teeth clacking against
each other like knucklebones, and his heart slammed against his rib cage,
beating an erratic rhythm—then a sideways shift and a glistening iridescence
lit up his cell.
The
next minute, he was… elsewhere.
He
flinched as thunderous growls and blaring horns blasted his eardrums and
squinted to limit the sharp sunlight piercing his eyeballs, before gradually
opening his eyes wider and wider as he tried to make sense of the bewildering
scene in front of him.
Metal
boxes on wheels in various sizes and colors streamed by inches from where he
stood, emitting a variety of honks, toots, and snorts. Men and women sat inside
the raucous machines, their gazes fixed on the vehicle in front. People wearing
outlandish outfits hurried along the sidewalk.
He
drew in a long, slow breath, coughing as acrid, fusty fumes entered his lungs.
This wasn’t the pure, clean air of his desert home. So what? There was always a
price to pay, and he didn’t care; he’d gained his freedom! He ran fingers over
his face, through his hair, and patted his smooth cheeks. He stretched, and
unused muscles and tendons expanded and released. His body was solid, no doubt
about that, and somehow light, his bloodstream fizzing with bubbles. Water
leaked down his smooth, golden-brown cheeks. A sensation he couldn’t identify
coursed through him.
A
flash of insight revealed it wasn’t the bewildering sights that blinded his
vision, nor the cacophonous sounds invading his brain through his ears, nor the
folk rushing along the busy street; it was the wild mixture of their emotions
that overwhelmed him. Little did they know that their fears, anxieties, hopes,
and loves all seeped out through their skin into the atmosphere. Such a porous
membrane to contain such a wealth of power, and for a djinn with his
abilities—when they were at full strength, that is—so easy to access.
He
grinned. He had succeeded. Of course, he, the great Al Quareem, once
acknowledged to be among the most powerful djinns to grace his society, most
certainly wouldn’t cease to exist because he garbled his own spell—a spell that
had taken eons to remember, hidden from his own mind by the Hunters’ hex. Granted
it had been difficult, until at last he had remembered and escaped. He wanted
to laugh and dance, but while he had liberated himself from their dungeon, his
jailers would have known the instant he disappeared. His new, unfettered state
would surely provide multiple opportunities, and he would rather die than allow
them to incarcerate him again.
The
beat of a drum and the tinkling of small metal cymbals accompanied by a
rhythmic chant caught his attention. The words were in an ancient language he
once knew and he sought the source.
Intrigued,
he turned and was distracted by the faintest whiff of something else. Something
different. Alien. He spun around, searching, sniffing. Yes, there. He glimpsed
the shimmer of a red cloak, sliding past on the other side of the veil that
separated the Hunters’ world from this one. Fear, a dark wall, rose inside him.
How could they be onto him so quickly? He froze, his limbs refusing to respond,
and his heartbeat accelerated, ricocheting around his chest, thundering through
his body.
A
man clutching a bulky leather case to his chest banged his arm as he hurried
by, breaking his trance. Quareem lifted a finger, pointed, and let it drop
before the pain began. He sighed. No more blasting of defenseless humans—one of
a hundred reasons the Hunters had incarcerated him.
He
scanned the crowd, primed to move, to run, the urge to hide overwhelming him.
He needed someone vulnerable. Ah! There. He cringed. His master, Shaitan curse
him forever, would have beaten him senseless for considering a dirty beggar—and
a female at that. This would be one of the lowest steps he had ever taken. As a
desperate fugitive, he would have to accept what the universe offered.
***
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Stay well and safe.
Warmest wishes,
Teagan.
The Disappointment Dilemma - Starting the Wrong Book
In my previous post, I said I would show you how to make sure your next book matches up to your expectations. We all know that time is a precious commodity, and we’ve all been in the situation when we finally have some peace, we’re sitting in our favorite reading spot (window seat, perfectly positioned chair or stretched out on the couch) with a soft cozy blanket and beverage in hand, ready to escape into another world…
But by chapter two — or sooner — we’re checking our phones, sighing and wondering where it all went wrong. Maybe the story drags, or the characters feel stereotyped, like cardboard cutouts, and the latest plot twist? Well, we saw that coming three pages ago.
Yes, reader disappointment is an emotion we’ve all felt— and none of us are eager to repeat that particular experience.
So, here’s a quick trick from one booklover (and author) to another, try this before committing to a full read:
Look for what it’s really about, not just the marketing sparkle.
2. Skim the first page. You’ll know right away if you’re drawn in by the tone, voice and mood.
3. Flip to a random page in the middle. If it still holds your attention, that’s a keeper.
This little ritual (the short-term pain of delaying the choice of a new book vs the long-term gain of waiting and finding a better one) can save hours of frustration, and your chances of finding your next read have shot up dramatically. Now you and your next read really do deserve that blanket and beverage combo.
Now that you know how to pick the right book… Next time, I’ll show you how to make sure you never run out of them.
Until then — may your next read be exactly what you were looking for, whether that’s gripping, enthralling, entertaining, etc., and transport you to another world.
Warmest wishes and happy reading.
Teagan.
(aka Author & Chief Book Disappointment Prevention Officer)
Too Many Books, Too Little Time
Hey there lovely readers,
I hope you and yours are well and enjoying the seasonal changes. Here, in the Scottish Highlands, the trees are displaying their glories in shades of lemon through to deep copper. However, the leaves on the cherry tree outside my window have already turned a crispy brown. Another windy storm and the winter view to the distant hills will reappear. This time of year makes me feel philosophical about life as the temporary nature of the world (here today, gone tomorrow, as they say) is clear to see.
The other day, I was looking for a new book to read, and I realized that being a reader today is both a blessing and a curse. On one hand, there’s a universe of stories waiting for us—epic space operas, heart-racing thrillers, dark domestic dramas, and romantic adventures that make our hearts skip a beat. On the other hand…so much choice.
This results in spending a long time, endlessly scrolling with too many tabs open, and too many “Top 100” lists to plough through.
But by answering these three questions you can narrow down the field and find that next book—fast:
1. Mood: What do you crave right now? Suspense? Romance? A touch of danger?
2. Setting: Are you drawn to gritty city streets, mysterious suburban secrets, or far-off galaxies?
3. Time: Do you want a quick evening read or a story to get lost in all weekend?
If you spend a little time thinking about and answering these questions (though sometimes the answer pops into your brain immediately), you’ll narrow the field down and can start searching for the books that actually fit your mood.
In my next email, I’ll show you how to make sure your new book delivers—so you’ll never again start a story that fizzles out halfway through.
Of course, if you’d rather skip the hunt entirely and save time, that’s where my bookstore comes in. 👉 teagankearney.com I have 18 eBooks, including thrillers, urban fantasy, sci-fi, romcom, cozy supernatural mysteries, and more. Whether you’re after a romantic escape, a dark psychological twist, or an epic space adventure, I hope you’ll find something that speaks to you.
UPDATES
Allie & The Djinn’s cover is complete, and you can read the Prologue by visiting my website: Teagan Kearney: Writer
Here's the blurb:
When Quareem jumps into Allie’s mind, they strike up a mutually beneficial arrangement. That is, until the Hunters arrive…
Blending dark fantasy, romance, and myth, this novella explores the limits of magic, memory, and love’s redemptive force. Perfect for fans of Deborah Harkness, Nalini Singh, or Anne Bishop, this tale delivers a rich, emotional adventure filled with danger, desire, and destiny.
The book will be released on 31st October 2025, a perfect day for a supernatural tale with magical creatures, don’t you think?
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In the meantime, keep reading, stay safe and have a great week.
Teagan.
Preview of New Release: Allie & The Djinn!
Please find below an excerpt from Allie & The Djinn, my upcoming release. My latest book, a novella, is a modern-day magic realism romfantasy which will be published on the 31st of October. After all, what better time to publish a story featuring magical creatures!
Quareem, one of the most powerful djinns of his time, has finally escaped the Hunters’ prison cell and is looking for a host.
Allie possesses a wealth of untapped hidden magic but spends her days chasing oblivion to ease the pain of losing her family in a tragic accident.
When Quareem jumps into Allie’s mind, they strike up a mutually beneficial arrangement. That is, until the Hunters arrive…
Allie & The Djinn
PROLOGUE
Quareem raised his hands, the walls of his tiny prison cell expanding with the movement, and concentrated on chanting every syllable with flawless pronunciation. After all, his goal wasn’t to end up as a sandworm in some wasteland, was it? After completing the spellbreaker, he waited.
No sound of a heartbeat, because the sorcery that placed him here had left him suspended outside of time and space.
I do exist, a quiet voice inside his head insisted, although, as far as the rest of the universe knew, his life had stopped the second the Hunters had trapped him and slapped their nullcuffs around his wrists.
He counted: one, two, three. The unmitigated sensory deprivation would have driven him mad if not for the sanity of numbers—and gasped as a bolt of lightning sliced through him. A sudden violent shivering had his teeth clacking against each other like knucklebones, and his heart slammed against his rib cage, beating an erratic rhythm—then a sideways shift and a glistening iridescence lit up his cell.
The next minute, he was… elsewhere.
He flinched as thunderous growls and blaring horns blasted his eardrums and squinted to limit the sharp sunlight piercing his eyeballs, before gradually opening his eyes wider and wider as he tried to make sense of the bewildering scene in front of him.
Metal boxes on wheels in various sizes and colors streamed by inches from where he stood, emitting a variety of honks, toots, and snorts. Men and women sat inside the raucous machines, their gazes fixed on the vehicle in front. People wearing outlandish outfits hurried along the sidewalk.
He drew in a long, slow breath, coughing as acrid, fusty fumes entered his lungs. This wasn’t the pure, clean air of his desert home. But so what? There was always a price to pay, and he didn’t care; he’d gained his freedom! He ran fingers over his face, through his hair, and patted his smooth cheeks. He stretched, and unused muscles and tendons expanded and released. His body was solid, no doubt about that, but somehow light, his bloodstream fizzing with bubbles. Water leaked down his smooth, golden-brown cheeks. A sensation he couldn’t identify coursed through him.
A flash of insight revealed it wasn’t the bewildering sights that blinded his vision, nor the cacophonous sounds invading his brain through his ears, nor the folk rushing along the busy street; it was the wild mixture of their emotions that overwhelmed him. Little did they know that their fears, anxieties, hopes, and loves all seeped out through their skin into the atmosphere. Such a porous membrane to contain such a wealth of power, and for a djinn with his abilities—when they were at full strength, that is—so easy to access.
He grinned. He had succeeded. Of course, he, the great Al Quareem, once acknowledged to be among the most powerful djinns to grace his society, most certainly wouldn’t cease to exist because he garbled his own spell—a spell that had taken eons to remember, hidden from his own mind by the Hunters’ hex. But he had at last remembered and escaped. He wanted to laugh and dance, but while he had liberated himself from their dungeon, his jailers would have known the instant he disappeared. His new, unfettered state would surely provide multiple opportunities, and he would rather die than allow them to incarcerate him again.
He inhaled deeper and caught the faintest whiff of something different. Alien. He spun around, searching, sniffing. Yes, there. He glimpsed the shimmer of a crimson cloak, sliding past on the other side of the veil that separated the Hunters’ world from this one. Fear, a dark wall, rose inside him. How could they be on to him so quickly? He froze, his limbs refusing to respond, and his heartbeat accelerated, ricocheting around his chest, thundering through his body.
A man clutching a bulky leather case to his chest banged his arm as he hurried by, breaking his trance. Quareem lifted a finger, pointed, and let it drop before the pain began. He sighed. No more blasting of defenseless humans—one of a hundred reasons the Hunters had incarcerated him.
He scanned the crowd, primed to move, to run, the urge to hide overwhelming him. He needed someone vulnerable. Ah! There. He cringed. His master, Shaitan curse him forever, would have beaten him senseless for considering a dirty beggar—and a female at that. This must be one of the lowest steps he had ever taken, but as a desperate fugitive, he would accept what the universe offered.
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Courage Under Fire
The idea came from a visit to the War Museum in London when I was a teenager, and my older brother had dragged me along with him. While he meandered, eyes wide, gawking at the weapon displays, I found myself almost in tears reading accounts of outstanding acts of bravery performed by soldiers awarded medals of honor in WWI.
Many years later, I remembered those stories and my reaction, so while Courage Under Fire is a work of fiction with names, characters, places and incidents either a product of my imagination or used fictitiously, the inspiration came from a real event.*
Courage Under Fire
Eddie clutches at wisps of his dream. Summer. His ma smelling of babies and herbs. He shivers, curling hedgehog-like into a ball, something he did when he was small after Da came home and battered anyone who said anything he took umbrage with. Even those harsh childhood memories appear rosy compared to what he is encountering now.
‘Time, lads.’ The sergeant’s heavy hand taps Eddie’s shoulder before moving along the trench. For such a big man, his movements are tender. The mercy of the hangman for the condemned.
Eddie pulls the coarse blanket up around his ears to keep the freezing cold at bay. The need to empty his bladder forces him to move. While he waits his turn at the latrines, the stink of feces mixed with quicklime curls up his nostrils, filling his mouth and belly with nausea. At least he’s not seen Jameson’s face for a few days.
Eddie thrusts aside the memory of his field punishment: tied to a gun wheel two hours a day for eleven days—awarded for a brawl started by Jameson. He won’t forget that in a hurry. After returning to his position, he finishes his bully beef and biscuits before sipping the cold tea that tastes of turnips. He relishes the rare moments of quiet before the day’s action.
‘You ready?’ his mate, John, whispers.
Eddie nods.
Both kneel. ‘Our Father who art in Heaven. Hallowed be thy name ...’
Eddie glances up and down the line. Most have put their rifles aside, and a gentle murmur rises as, with eyes shut, minds turned inward, they pray.
‘No one is an atheist when the bullets start flying,’ John had told him once. ‘Then everyone prays.’
The ack ack ack of enemy weapons knots Eddie’s guts, the fear familiar. Training kicks in, and he grabs his Lee-Enfield, checking the bolt-action mechanism, the ten-round box magazine, cartridges, cylinder and bayonet.
He dismisses the seditious whisperings, appearing daily now. But they return. The bastards move us like pawns while they sit far from the front line. This is just a game for them. It’s not their guts being smeared into the soil. But if you question, hesitate or, God forbid, lose your wits, your own side executes you. He clenches and unclenches his hands, feeling the cold metal of his weapon against his palms, as he remembers Willis, a private condemned to death as a traitor after walking away from the battlefield, stunned and in shock. Jameson had volunteered to be on the firing squad, but it was the contemptuous sneer on his face as he aimed his rifle at Willis that sticks in Eddie’s mind.
‘2nd Battalion,’ the sergeant growls, ‘move up the fire steps.’
The men surge up the rough ladders lining the wall and fling themselves to the ground. The angled top protects them as they lie on their stomachs.
Eddie tenses. There’s nothing that equates to warfare. Before the action, adrenaline primes you. You lie motionless, but alert, poised, every sense heightened. Each sound you hear draws a response from a nerve somewhere in your body. You don’t dare think this might be the last few seconds of life, because if you did, you’d remember your loved ones, and lose the hate you hold on to because you need it to kill.
He stares out at No Man’s Land. If he half closes his eyes, he can almost believe he’s with his Da in Chelmsbury Woods; an early morning mist creeping along the ground, frost nipping at his fingers, and cold seeping into his bones as he lies concealed in bushes, holding Da’s old rifle and waiting for a rabbit or squirrel to happen past.
The earth shudders as a barrage of artillery pounds targets, and choruses of mortar detonations swell to a deafening volume.
‘Fire’ bellows the sergeant.
Eddie raises his head, scanning the area; he aims and discharges his rifle. Bullets scream through the air. Empty the magazine; reload and fire. Again and again.
The Huns are too distant to distinguish individual features, but close enough to see rows of steel helmets and glinting bayonets.
Eddie pauses, rubbing his numb fingers. Something catches his eye. He squints. ‘Look! There! Isn’t that Housby? ’ he mutters to John.
Housby had fallen too near enemy lines for an attempted recovery even under darkness. That was two days ago when they tried—and failed—to storm their adversary’s position.
Sure enough, where Eddie is pointing, barely distinguishable from the churned, frozen sludge, John sees a brown-gray lump twitch. “You’re right, lad.”
But Eddie’s up and moving.
'Hey! Eddie! Stop! You can’t save him. They’ll shoot you,’ John yells after him.
Eddie doesn’t stop, keeps racing forward.
'Cover him, lads!’ John orders.
Eddie moves in stops and starts; bent, scuttling crabwise, he scuffles sideways and forwards, his heart pumping so hard he thinks it’ll rupture. Then he trips, and his face smacks the earth as shells whistle by far too close to his ear. The wounded man groans; Eddie scans the injured soldier and realizes he’s not Housby. It’s Jameson.
More shells detonate.
Eddie freezes. What if John’s right? What if he doesn’t survive? The thoughts crowd in, and he can’t control the violent temors running through his body. Oh God, I don’t want to die out here in this freezing hell of muck and mud. Ashes to ashes and dust to dust. Not yet, dear God. Please. Why am I risking my life for that rat Jameson? Have I come too far to go back? Then he hears Ma’s voice: ‘You always got to try, Eddie. All you got to do is try.’ He seesaws. Should he save himself? Or try to rescue Jameson?
He makes a scurrying, scampering, mad dash toward the prostrate man, ignoring the incessant shellfire and shots screaming past. Somehow, he reaches the fallen soldier. He crouches and sees black blood oozing from Jameson’s wounds. ‘Jesus, you’re a mess,’ he whispers.
Jameson whimpers as Eddie heaves him up onto his shoulder.
Balancing Jameson’s weight, trying not to breathe in the smell of festering wounds, Eddie locks eyes with the Boche soldier facing him, not twenty feet away.
The young, blue-eyed, dirt-smeared lad, who couldn’t have been a day over sixteen, if that, has him in his sights. But he’s frozen with fright. This must be his first battle.
And Eddie knows that look. Once, out hunting with Da, there’d been a deer, a creature whose grace captivated him. Eddie recalls the soft innocence in the animal’s eyes as it looked up, sniffing for danger—oblivious to death’s approach. Da, impatient, snatched the gun from his hand and, with one sharp shot, secured enough meat to feed his hungry brood for a week.
Eddie winks at the German lad and grins through cracked lips.
The youngster manages a stiff nod.
But Jameson is heavy. The same as the deer Da had forced him carry home. A full-grown doe is a heavy weight for a thirteen-year-old boy, and twice he fell. Da stood, his expression hard, and watched without helping each time Eddy labored to rise. It took an hour to walk the mile to their cottage. Afterwards Da made him skin and butcher the animal while he sat and smoked his pipe. But Eddie’s committed. No-one is going to butcher Jameson.
Incoming Howitzers whine and lights flash as they strike their targets: excruciating cries echo from both sides as heavy mortar rounds find soft flesh which explodes outwards. The sound of aircraft overhead adds a deeper bass growl to the awful cacophony of battle.
Eddie recognizes that not a single shot from behind comes anywhere near them. They are blessed; their return a miracle.
John scrambles out and rushes toward them. Grabbing Jameson’s arms, he lowers him from Eddie’s back and together they half-carry, half-drag the unconscious man to safety. The three of them slide in a tangle of limbs into the trench. A rousing cheer erupts from the men, who, hardly believing what they’d just witnessed, had expected Eddie to be killed at any minute.
‘Bloody fool!’ barks the sergeant as he takes Jameson off them. Carrying him like a babe in his brawny embrace, he moves up the line, throwing more words over his shoulder. ‘You’re a bloody fool, Eddie, but a bloody brave one!’
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Teagan,
FYI: I have published previous editions of this story under the title, Eddie's War, but I flashed on this new title this morning, and it just fit a whole lot better. 👍
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Interview with Monica Nash: Narrator of The Serendipity Game Audiobook:
I was
born in Reading and grew up in Berkshire where my parents taught at a boarding
school. I come from a large family and was very fond of climbing trees, cycling
and playing endless games with my sister and our large collection of dolls. For
the most part I enjoyed school, particularly English, Art and History.
2.
Did you always want to be an actress and what drew you to the performing arts
as a career?
I was always in school plays and loved
performing in general as a child, but for years my great passion was ballet. I
loved the music and the costumes, but most of all I loved the storytelling. It
was as a teenager that acting took over as my primary interest. I knew then
that I wanted to act professionally, and never seriously considered any other
career.
3.
When did you first perform and where did you train?
As an
undergraduate studying English at the University of Bristol, I was heavily
involved in the drama and music scenes. Later, I went to Bristol Old Vic
Theatre School, where I studied for two years. My first professional acting
jobs were in 2014.
4. Who are your influences?
I have drawn inspiration from
many people over the years, from family members to school teachers. My greatest
professional influences have been certain members of staff at drama school,
and, more generally, actors ranging from Samantha Morton to Emma Thompson to
Joyce Grenfell. I am influenced by any great piece of theatre that I see.
5. What do you do to prepare?
It depends on the project but
generally speaking I jump straight in with the script, and do any research that
needs to be done as I go along.
6.
What are your strengths as an actor and how do
they contribute to the style that makes you unique?
I have
always been confident with language, and my English degree has been an enormous
help to me. I am good at spotting the rhythm of a line and knowing how to
deliver it effectively. This is useful in both comedic and serious roles, and I
always try to be a performer who can pass seamlessly between comedy and drama
at the drop of a hat.
7.
What fears/anxieties do you have about your work?
Actors
always worry that they are not getting enough auditions, and I am no exception!
In this line of work, financial stability is never guaranteed, so that is
sometimes a concern. I am also worried about the way this industry has
historically treated women, although I do think that it is improving.
8.
What has been your greatest accomplishment as an actor and what impact did that
success have on you?
My
greatest achievement is that I am still working and making my living in this
industry six years in! Probably my greatest specific achievement was
successfully learning to walk on stilts, from scratch, in only six days, for a
theatre role. It definitely made me more confident about learning new skills
and gave me more faith in myself that I could rise to a challenge.
9.
How does recording an audiobook stretch you as an actor and what was the
biggest challenge you faced in recording The Serendipity Game?
Recording
audiobooks is unlike any other form of performing since you do it alone without
fellow cast members to inspire you and buoy you up. ‘The Serendipity Game’ in
particular has a large cast of characters. Flitting seamlessly from one voice
to another was probably the greatest challenge.
10.
What did you like about Casey in The Serendipity Game?
Casey
has had a difficult childhood and has come out of it as a very independent and
spirited woman. She is loyal to her friends and stands up for herself. These
were all great aspects to bring to her character.
11.
If you had the chance to perform any role in any play or film, who would you
choose and why?
There
are far too many to choose from, but it’s probably a toss up between Eliza
Doolittle in ‘My Fair Lady’ and Cruella de Vil in ‘101 Dalmatians’. Eliza is a
richly comic part but also a nuanced character who goes on an incredible
character journey, of a kind which is hugely rewarding to play. Cruella is a
straightforward, larger than life, insane, bloodthirsty villain (with fantastic
costumes) – who doesn’t love playing one of those?
12.
Who do you look up to?
I love
the work of directors like Josie Rourke, Emma Rice and Vicky Featherstone. The
actor I most look up to, in terms of her range, emotional clarity and career
choices, is Lesley Manville.
13.
What is your next project?
I am
working on another audiobook called ‘Hello’, a psychological thriller, and I am
in rehearsals for an outdoor concert performance of Sondheim’s musical ‘Into
the Woods’, playing Cinderella.
14.
Where do you see yourself in ten years’ time?
Still
acting! Hopefully with a rich and varied CV, having made many more wonderful
friends.
15.
What do you do when you’re not performing or recording audiobooks?
I have
done various other non-acting jobs over the years. At the moment I am doing
some online tutoring, as well as writing and performing some comedy pieces for
a podcast. Outside of work, I sing with a chamber choir called Vivamus, spend
time with my family and friends, drink copious amounts of tea, and see as much
great theatre as I can.
16. What does
your perfect Sunday afternoon look like?
Probably a longish walk ending up at the pub followed by
watching a movie on the sofa with friends.
If you want to find out more about Monica you can contact her via her website: https://www.monicanashactor.com/
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